i guess its true. i can give you almost everything if you are nice to me. stupid and naive of me, but then, that's what i'd do. no wonder i am always cheated. yea. i guess so. uh-huh. i am a naive fuck.

i guess me and gary are the most lonely people in this planet earth. people desert us both for their steads. fucking unfair, i feel like a spare tyre. only used when al's stead neglect her. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. ya. fuck me for all i care. enjoy your day with your steads.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.. you can jolly well suck my dick if i have one!

i just realise i DON'T need men AT ALL. maybe for sex, other than that, i DONT even need them. i can be very independent. i dont have time to go shopping with them, i dont have time to kiss and hug and do all sorts of things with them. i am starting to see that i can be alone. i dont need men to even force themselves to love me. i can stand on my own two feet. yup. i know i can. and i AM confident i can. uh-huh.

kick me, hit me, bite me, slap me. dont you EVER treat me as your spare tire. i fucking hate that. i am me, not someone you go to, talk to when your steads neglect you. i love myself too much, i dont need men to do that anymore. i should be les, but then, les arent accepted. bugger. fuck fuck fuck. hur hur... i hate all of you. FUCKING SOB!!

i should have realise it all along. women can be independent. though at times i do want someone i can throw tantrum at or sa jiao at. but then, i realise men indeed are physical being.

i remembered jackie wu aka wu zhong xian once said, " nan ren shi chu sheng, dan nu ren pian ai xiao dong wu". its true, i show u why...

situation Alpha:
A and B are in love. but A is a flirt. A always cheat on B. one day B came home to find A in bed with another woman. then B cry la. cry. then A apologise, swear that he die die wont do it again. then B accept la.
note: but the thing is, we know A wont change, but we are weak and naive, we think they'll change for us. but do they? NO!!! they do it again and again. and beg for forgiveness again and again. and we stupidly forgive them.

women like bad guys. cuz they think they can influence the guy to change for them. its naive.

topic 2: women are always treated unfairly.

i always stand with the policy " all are equal". but its not always true.

situation A: *note that names are all fictional. any resemblances is pure coincidence!
Jack & Jill are married. then Jack feels that Jill cant satisfy his sexual pleasure. therefore, he had a mistress. then Jill found out, wanted to divource [sp] Jack. Jack accuses Jill of not being able to satisfy him, and he is "forced" to find another woman. and thus, Jill is blamed for Jack's mistake! lalala..how wonderful eh?

evaluation: we get blame for almost everything. when we give birth to a girl, we're blamed. seriously. woman can only give "X" chromosomes, its the guy who produces the "Y". therefore, dont blame your daughter-in-law if she give birth to a girl. blame it on your son! not us char bo, ok?!

realise that love is a shallow thing. it seems like loving a person for his/her quality, personality is no longer in existance. you will only get a bf if you have a hot body, you look beautiful and you can be bed easily. whatever happen to love? it seem to have vanish. love is no longer an emotional thing, its a physical thing. picture this

under the moonlight..
boy: aww baby, i had a wonderful night.
girl: me too.
-boy leans forward to kiss the girl-
girl: why do you love me?
boy: because you have a hot body. and you are willing to have sex with me

isnt that stupid. love has become so shallow. therefore, i'll love a man cause he has a hot hot body and good in bed. yeah. that's love? NO!! that is just LUST!! nobody understand what is love. nobody knows what's love. and frankly, neither do i. cause i am confused. the only thing i can get when i see love can be shown through an equation

LOVE = HOT BODY + SEX

yup, indeed, that's love! my oh my. i am totally confused! enlighten me then!

sick of ranting on and on. its not like anybody is going to read it. its like i am writing for the fun of writing. and as a medium to vent my frustration. i can picture myself...30 years from now. all alone. lol. i am crazy.

damn. i am cursing and swearing again. my tolerance level is running low, way low. feeling rather shitty lately. stress over alot of stuff. mood swings acting up again. and yes, i am starting to hate everyone whom i know. and i wish i hadnt known anyone, then i dont have to go through such agony. i wish i have no feelings. i wish i was all alone. i wish i have never existed


lastly, i wish that my wish is granted.



**note that this topic is my OWN view. i didnt mean to offend anyone, its my point of view. this blog is meant for me to vent my frustrations and hatred. therefore, if you are unhappy, there is nothing i can do.

-- i suck and i can do it well--