Monday, January 31, 2011
Tsk

You know how jealousy can make a nice person become super horrible. I have my taste of this since June 2010. I know I shouldn't comment much, but I think these people are super incorrigible. Just last Saturday when they have dana at this person's place, this person super bo xim, only call to "invite" us over at like 9am in the morning! Of course we won't go as we have made our own plans already. Then how they can turn their tongues and make it look as though we are very petty and we don't wanna go. I really dislike them to the core. They are the horrible ones, but they really know how to act and make themselves look like an angel ): Losing faith in everything I once believed it. Just go over, you all are only nice to us cuz u wanna get closer to him! WTF!!! Shoo and good riddance!!

Oh well, its CNY in 3 days time and totally don't feel it!!! OMGHHKP~!!!! WHY??!! Maybe was ultra absolutely busy since December and only now we can rest! I went to make color contacts with my sister and (: so so so happy!!! ((: Gonna collect it today after work!

Something really stupid happen yesterday. I was ordering Pizza Hut online....and I used my credit card to make purchase. but I couldn't find it (even though I remembered my card details) and I kinda panicked and called the company to report it. AND only after 10 minutes after I reported it, I FOUND IT!!! HAHHAHAHHA!!!!! It was at the compartment that I put my photos de!!! OMG!! I am super blur!!

anyways,

Yuan Ee, I hope you don't get affected by what J is doing. If she chooses her current BFFs over you, just let it be. Prolly she just doesn't value the 5 years friendship you shared together. Hwaiting for your studies and I will see you soon soonest k!!!!! Miss you loads~ <3>


xoxo



hydefied - @ 09:10


Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Random Ra Ra

I should talk to you but why can't you be back! Tsk~

Anyways, my weekends are very busy. Spend my entire Saturday at Marine Parade area, as my sister needed to do video editing, I was there with mum and her! Helped my sis to do some of her things for her department party. zzz. Didn't go back on Saturday as my sister couldn't complete the editing because he keep talking about that tiger(!!!!!) and all the problems she caused when they were all at England. WTF la!!!!

Went back home on Sunday morning to bathe. As I predict there won't be seats available in the car. Decided not to go dana la. So I rested at home, as we were going Chinatown at night. Ended up my sis still didn't manage to complete the video and my dad & I just went Chinatown to have dinner and walk around. Bored max! Yet again, they had to stay over as my sister only managed to complete the editing at 3am!!

Dad is out at Penang to protect Bhikkhu from that tiger la! OMGHHKP! Stupid problem causing tiger!! Whatever, don't even want to talk about her now! So evil and scheming!! Anyways, went Funan to help Mr Moi get his android phone and we just walked around the area. Had Gong Cha, heh heh, since the queue wasn't long (surpising!!) but still can't beat Koi! :P

I think this is a random update. See if I got anymore things to say later


hydefied - @ 10:44


Thursday, January 20, 2011
Sorry

Sorry that my post lately are so self-centred, whiny, emo and angsty!












More happy posts to come!! (:







*pinky promise


hydefied - @ 08:36



Babblings

This really got me thinking a while. You know, I just recently went for a talk and the person said "Friends, don't expect that it will last forever, things will change and we need to know that there is no forever"..it got me abit emo thinking about it, but I guess more or less it's true. Friends are people you meet across your journey in life, some will make an impact, some just a passerby but they'll move on and you meet another bunch of people who will do more or less the same thing to your life.

We don't often think of such thing, of the treasure the moment mindset, and it's just really disheartening to know that sometimes things may not look as how you wanted it to be. Do you ever ask yourself like "Do my friends really like me?", "Am I too blunt/crude in my speech that it hurts them?"

I think lately after the talk, it really got me thinking. I would feel like do people really like me for who I am? Or are they just being nice even though they hate me loads? Am I so blunt in my speech that it hurts them, but they just pretend to be nice, bu jie yi but end up bitching behind me??

I guess it's very difficult for others to accept who you really are, not what you portray yourself to be. Most people wear a mask to go on with life, but it just has no point. Why can't we treat others with true heart and feelings.

I don't wanna be friends with benefits.
I don't wanna hide behind the mask.
I don't wanna act like I don't care.
I don't wanna second-guess your motives for being nice.
I don't wanna know you are bitching behind me, when moments ago, you were smiling at me.
I don't wanna be like a puppet.
I don't wanna know that you had to pretend to like/be friend with/talk to me.
I don't wanna know your lies.








If you don't like me, why do you still wanna be nice?











Can't we love us for who we are?



I don't know why I started to type this! We just need to treasure the good moments we have and make it last! (:


hydefied - @ 08:13


Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Totally FML

This is the post where I tell you how I screwed up my life, not really totally screwed but how I hated it sometimes.

ok, I know I am only 22 and life has still a long way to go. Sometimes I wish I would have work harder during Primary and Secondary school so that I have better scores and get to better courses. And I really should have just went Uni when there was an offer and not come work at some fucked up shitty thing that I DETEST! Shucks~

And maybe we should have gotten married so that I can don't have to work (!!!) and prolly become a huang lian po!

Totally hate everything that I am doing now.

FML FML FML!!!!!!


hydefied - @ 11:40


Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Rambling on and on

Phone lines were horrifyingly ringing non stop yesterday! Tsk. Breaks your concentration from work and so distracting, and we can't just ignore it! BAH! This is the worst job I had but don't know why I am still here!! HAHAHA

Went down to the airport yesterday to send off someone! The lil boy is uber cuteness!! Bought chocolates, cakes for him as it will be his birthday tomorrow!! <3 <3 love going over Malaysia to see him!!! Cutie!! :D

CNY is just around the corner but I still have yet to do spring cleaning for kitchen and living rooms! (: Thankfully have settled our rooms. And I have cleaned my CD rack/shelf when I moved it to my room! ^^ And just change certain orientation on my vanity table!

I am so so tempted to get MAC desktop! My sis was just telling me the other day that we're slowly turning into the Apple cult. HAHA! Since we both have ipods, my bro has iphone (i'm thinking of getting too) and we have plans to get MAC computer!!!! I don't know why but I think MAC computers are super cool! I was at EpiCentre last Saturday and was trying out the computer while the salesperson was installing some programs into the Macbook Pro, found that it was really very easy to use and has itunes pre-installed into it! I think getting it has an advantage as we are all using apple products, thus syncing with the computer would be less complicated!! Can't wait for IT Fair. The last one I went to, they were selling it at $999. Too bad I didn't want it then. ):

I am so obsessed with Purikura now!!! And I'm like trying to drag all my good/close friends/ buddies to go take with me!!! Totally love decorating my photos after the photo taking sessions! It just makes your skin look absolutely smooth and flawless!! Next, I'm gonna drag Eugene, Casilda and GC to go take with me! I think our last Purikura session was 2009!!! which is like so long ago! I love the ones I took with Yuan Ee!! (even though it makes her eyes look like she's done some plastic surgery!!! HAHAHA). Shall go scan those that I took recently~ <3 <3 <3

Breaking Dawn gonna have a sex scene (??!!) Really, means no kids gonna watch it!!! LOL~! Seriously, is there really a need for it? I think the only part that I am not looking forward to is Bella's delivery! I read the book and it was OMGHKP!!!! O.O I could relatively "feel" the pain she's experiencing and it's graphic!! I don't like it!! Brownie points that they got a super cute lil girl to be Renesmee, she looks totally like a offspring of Rob & Kristen~ Nuff' said!!

xoxo

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Love y'all~


hydefied - @ 09:53



Taylor Swift- Mine

Oh, oh, oh

Oh, oh, oh

You were in college, working part-time, waiting tables

Left a small town and never looked back

I was a flight risk, afraid of fallin

'Wondering why we bother with love, if it never lasts

I say, "Can you believe it?"

As we're lyin' on the couchT

he moment, I can see it

Yes, yes, I can see it now

Do you remember, we were sittin' there, by the water?

You put your arm around me for the first time

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter

You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Flash forward, and we're takin' on the world together

And there's a drawer of my things at your place

You learn my secrets and figure out why I'm guarded

You say we'll never make my parents' mistakes

But we got bills to pay

We got nothin' figured out

When it was hard to take

Yes, yes

This is what I thought about:

Do you remember, we were sittin' there, by the water?

You put your arm around me for the first time

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter

You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you remember all the city lights on the water?

You saw me start to believe for the first time

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter

You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Oh, oh, oh, oh

And I remember that fight, two-thirty AM

You said everything was slipping right out of our hands

I ran out, crying, and you followed me out into the street

Braced myself for the goodbye, cause that's all I've ever known

Then, you took me by surprise

You said, "I'll never leave you alone."

You said, "I remember how we felt, sitting by the water.

And every time I look at you, it's like the first time.

I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter.

She is the best thing that's ever been mine."

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter

You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you believe it?

We're gonna make it now

And I can see it

I can see it now



hydefied - @ 09:18


Monday, January 17, 2011
2nd entry of the day

I really don't wanna talk to you for now! It will get to my emotions and it doesn't help that I used to be helplessly and hopelessly in love with you! Let's take a break and distance will be a better option now! Really! At least it gives me loads of room and time to think of what needs to be done, set my priorities straight.

I don't like my handwriting, I don't know why I am talking about this. But I think it's crazily messy and too squeezed up. Owells...I am too lazy to try to change it but maybe when I do find a motivation to! I think lack of writing makes my hand cramp/hurt easily when I write. I don't know if it happens to others, but I find that when I have to write loads of things on my cases, it feels like I'm gonna have a cramp and it really hurts. This is so lame~

I have started listening to Taylor Swift album and ABSOLUTELY love "Mine"! It's such a sweet song and my favourite line from the song is "You are the best thing that's ever been mine" (: Never fails to make me smile when I hear it!! ((: Whenever I listen to her songs, I can like totally relate to it and feels like what I'm going through..

Top 5 Favourite Taylor Swift Song
1) Our Song
2) Love Story
3) You Belong with Me
4) Mine
5) Fearless

Go youtube to watch the videos. :P

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hydefied - @ 17:14



Being Diligent

I think I am blogging more diligently now, which is good!! Then I wont't be like blogging once a month which is super irritating!

Went out on Saturday with my momma and siblings. My bro just changed his phone to an iphone 4 and I feel so tempted to change mine too! hmph! 3 more months to go~then I will decide if I wanna get it anot! But I really wanna get a MAC desktop!! It's super cool and so fun! Waiting for IT fair then! (:

I think there are something wrong with my fingers...well, its more like I just keep typing wrongly. Like I want to type something, but my fingers then type it all wrong. Maybe I am just too distracted, or maybe I want to type this, but my mind is thinking of something, so end up I typed the wrong thing! Shucks~

BFF is LOVE!!


hydefied - @ 14:08


Thursday, January 13, 2011
Random - Raw Feelings -

Did something super random yesterday that I came to realise if it was overall good or bad. I know one day when I look back I am not gonna regret it but well...ya...it's a good thing! I gotta remind myself about that! (:

Most time I feel that I just plunge into the water and find out that I can't swim and am struggling loads. I think that's how I am feeling now. Overwhelmed by everything.

I remember that day when BFF left for Swiss~I really couldn't stay in office as I feel very enclosed and I just couldn't stand it! Which I totally regret not taking leave to send her off. The horrid thing is as I was on my way home on the train, I could feel the tears brimming in my eyes, it doesn't help that a sappy song came on my ipod. WTF!!

I know I gotta let go of the one I am stuck in right now and think through what I really want in my life. I know it isn't too hopeful but it's gonna work out fine! (: It ain't easy after all that has happen between us..love is totally 100% blind and when it comes to it, we tend to do really stupid thing just to acknowledge it's presence.

This is like a super emo post la~ but I think after this post, it ain't gonna happen anymore. things will get better..and it's all gonna work out fine!!!















I wonder who am I kidding...

I feel like crying now!! why why why!


hydefied - @ 15:44



Fake

Really don't see this thing going any further from where we are now. Sometimes I really don't understand you and you too of me. Sadly, things aren't the same as it was 5 years ago. Although I say this will be very open, I really don't want it to be! I know its really hard and I am always in this moodswing that drives you nuts but I'm trying. I wanna forget all the things I imagine you with someone else somewhere else. I don't wanna smile at you and tell you that everything is alright when it obviously isn't..Sometimes reassurance isn't good enough...I know I should stop whining and be more understanding, thoughtful..but sometimes I wish I can be that whiny, unthoughtful person. ): I really want things to go back to where it has started. Happy, carefree and uncomplicated!!! Maybe it's not meant to be?? Sigh~

Strange strange strange! I don't like to be affected by these things. I knew this will happen one day but that rebellious side just wanna take a plunge into it. Playing with fire is cool until you get burnt. Pain sets you into reality..that really sucks loads! )):

Just heard from sis that we may have to go over London ~Vesak Day for the concert and it should be fun!! Something worth being happy about. Going there means going Japan next year, since I don't think there will be sufficient leave, right?

Will be going out with LXL next Friday. Ermm...yeah...like that lah. Nothing to be excited about^ Just casual outing only lor :P

Gotta learn to let go. If it's not meant to be, it will never be!!

^she insist I don't get so excited about it


hydefied - @ 08:47


Monday, January 10, 2011
Opinions

Took urgent leave on friday as I wanted to lend some moral suport to my momma. Well...... apparently they wanted to "talk out" the so-called mistakes of Vassa. Sometimes I don't see the point of that. Mainly whatever is over is over. We can learn to forgive and forget BUT why is everyone doing all sort of shitty irritating things to stir our emotions. This is not good at all...how to do that if you don't let me go?? This shouldn't have happen, and since it has...someone has to put a FULL stop to it! ):

Oh a happy note! Neoprint sessions with my cousin!! :D So much fun and one of the booths has sparkly effect thingy. mad love!!! It is super duper cool!! (: Going out with Shirley next Friday and super excited! :D


I LOVE NEOPRINTS!!!!


hydefied - @ 12:57


Monday, January 03, 2011
December Favourites + Update of New Year + Resolutions

It's already January!! Means December favourites is UP!

Ok I have been reaching out alot lately to this product CURE! I think its a great product that helps to exfoliate dead cells off your body. I like that it does a clean job, making your face smooth but it doesn't leave this dry feeling. Recommended to use before putting on facial masks or make-up! :)

I am also using alot of the J-Lo perfume that my cousin gave me a few years ago, when I was still in Poly! I like the sweet, girly scent it has and its long lasting..you gonna smell sweet even after a long day out! :) Loves

Currently I have an OBSESSION with make-ups and I am totally in LOVE L-O-V-E with the Bobbi Brown Beauty Rule! Its really super informative! and I love those step-to-step make-up tips, and makeover pictures. I am totally in love with the one in page 94 (I think)...the purple eyeshadow is absolutely gorgeous!!! Did my own inspired one on it...but didn't know if it was really nice...too bad I didn't bother to take a photo on it :P

Scrapbooking. After doing that lil scrapbook thingy for Yuan Ee, I am inspired to do one for myself but I wish I have the time and energy to do so as I am super lazy and am always putting things off. No good!! Soon...I may start one. Wish me Luck! :D

I totally completed my wishlist for X'mas 2010. And this is my top 5 favourites
1) Bobbi Brown Beauty Rule
2) Alice Cullen Barbie Doll
3) Taylor Swift Album
4) Make-up brushes
5) Eclipse DVD

My top 5 favourite movie of 2010
1) The Twilight Saga : Eclipse
2) Inception
3) Rapunzel: A Tangled Tale
4) Box!
5) Iron Man 2

I think that's all that I can think for my favourites, and things I reach for for this month. I think most of the other things are more or less repetitive!! :P

Yeah~ It's 2011 and how was your NEW YEAR?!! I pretty much spend it alone and youtubing all day! Nothing much to do but I am super excited as I have used this time to pack my shelves and also did a photo collage on the new empty space of the wall. And I have put up an Eclipse and New Moon Poster! (: I thought my wall look awesome now! Not dull and boring!!! :)

Have you done your New Year's Resolution?? I did and I hope I could stay on to it! *finger-crossed*

2011 gonna be a blast!!


hydefied - @ 12:12


Saturday, January 01, 2011
2011

Happy New Year!!!!!!




2011 is gonna be an AWESOME YEAR, y'all!!!!!!!


hydefied - @ 00:05