Saturday, July 30, 2005
The Real Me

Here is the analysis:

+ 1 + You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

+ 2 + You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

+ 3 + You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

+ 4 + Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

+ 5 + Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking

hydefied - @ 12:51

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself: You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love: You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education: Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success: You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of: You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

hydefied - @ 12:43

Friday, July 29, 2005
oh..shut up

if there's one thing that i hate. its when someone ask me to shut up. well..if you really wanna do so. scream it to me using british accent. as least i wont be so pissed. if you're gonna use other language or singaporean kind. then u shut up. and secondly if you dun enjoy hearing me say fuck. so be it. you better learn to accept it cause i aint gonna change it for you. who are you all to me. so stop interfering in every single shit that i choose to do.

i liked my way of living. i am a fucking asshole and i dun deny it. my tempremental mood are really getting worse and lately my tolerance level is way low. so get out of my way and STOP BOTHERING ME!!!! bloody crap shit. it's my way of life whether you like it or not. asshole. freaking ass-wipe. leave me alone. let me choose my own path. let me rot and let me die. cuz its my decision to do so. damn!!!

and yes. so stop asking me to shut up. cause i'll get pissed out alot. so too bad. its silent treatment. and the cold war has officially started. and why are people always late for appointments? isnt punctuality what we were being taught? well..apparently, many of us has forgotten of this virtue. too bad. i gotta be cruel one day. if you're not on time. i'll just leave whether you like it anot. irritating.

and yes, curse me. slap me. punch me. strangle me. i dun give a fucking damn bout it cuz you all are nothing and nobody to me. so too bad. i dun care if i hurt you or what. i am not going to be so tolerating and kind anymore. from now on, its my own way of life. i do what i like. i choose my own life. so stop bossing me around and controlling my every decision cuz you are nobody. i choose my life. fate is in my hands. so LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

do what you do best and stop messing up my life. i am a human, i can think for myself. thank you very much!

hydefied - @ 09:29

Tuesday, July 26, 2005
golly wholly polly

+ please me. hug me. kiss me +

+ be me boyfriend. be my best friend. be my brother +

hydefied - @ 10:43

The finer things in life

9999 words essay write out beautifully, placed into a beautiful envelope accompanied with a rose [ or just a pretty flower], chocolate [ personally made ones] and a special thing that you want. seriously and honestly, will it win a girl's heart if a guy does this? i dunno.

hmmm...tiring day but had fun. adventure least we started climbing a low element.. least it’s better than nothing. so i should keep my bloody mouth shut and not complain. CATS...oh bother...i kinda dread going to that class...all it does is squeeze my brain dry and liveless. boo...damn...i feel like crap and shit today. lack of energy? i dunno...maybe.

coming back to the issue about my hair. oh is copper brown. it looks so "bright". damn!! i shouldnt have dyed it in the first place. cuz in the instructions, it clearly stated that black hair= brown [which look acceptable to me]. and brown hair = copper brown hair. i stupidly missed the instruction and i am stuck with copper hair...too’s my own bloody fault and i cant blame anyone. can i?

i am still thinking bout the things they used to tell me. have i really change a lot? well...i guess i really did. i dunno why but maybe as my life gets more and more complicated, i may not live as happy as i want myself to be. aint gonna share and trouble others bout my problem. cuz in my point of view what is the point in doing so. nah, they wont understand and they'll find it and me totally irritating. boo...damn...fffuuuccckkk.....

not prepared for finally test yet. gotta buck up if i wanna achieve good grades. and yes i dun wanna lose to him. its embarrassing and i may end up ending my so called wonderful life. lol. i dunno. see how things go on. and see if problems will start getting solved. dream the impossible. attempt the impossible. lol.

19.july.2005. a day that will be remembered always and forever. time really flew fast. she's left us for a year. i wonder if she is really happy now. and yes i am positive she is as i know she'll be born into a family who will give her love. her life will be less painful than what she went through in this life. and yes, i pray for her happiness. you are forever loved, cherished, treasured by the passione family. and i truly miss you. miss your laughter as you never fail to brighten my day with your concerns and care. treasured friend who will always be in my mind, heart and never forgotten, let go. yean choi, we all loved and treasure the time [ though its only a year and 7 months] we spent with you. ____+ missed dearly +____

_____+ make my day a happy, worth living one +_____

hydefied - @ 08:13

Sunday, July 24, 2005
Pancake with strawberry and milk..wonderful combination..i hope

2 days before school reopen. i didnt went out with him today. i dunno why. maybe cuz i hadnt forgiven him, and also i wasnt feeling too ok, so i rejected his "group date". maybe i feel more comfortable when i go out out with the tuang-sters gang. lol. i dunno.

life has go on rather smoothly now...

1) Relationship problems
2) Common Tests

yippie, my two most problematic and frustrating problems are over..i hope.. but i dunno if i am going to forgive him. come on, do something and make me forgive you. do anything but just dun resort to begging cuz it'll make you seem rather desperate. but then, whatever. as though i really give a damn. crap-ster in action.

whahaha....yeah, i am laughing...duh!

problem solve = no more headaches = no more heartbreak= no longer in confusion!

hydefied - @ 04:05

Saturday, July 23, 2005
write read my lips i am not going to forgive you. read my lips, i aint gonna forgive you. bleah. wadever. i dunno and i dun care. wad a relief, i was told that i pass my el tech. i thot it was a gone case de. but who knows, what if its a mistake? bleah..*fingers crossed*

<--- be very afraid --->

p.s. i still cant get "carrie" the novel from the school library. DAMN!!

hydefied - @ 09:31

Friday, July 22, 2005
with this and that add up to those

hmmm..i dunno what to do le. i dunno who i should choose. give me a choice. who's better? i dunno who i want to be with now. so many choices, so little time. bleah. difficult choices. hmmm.. how now? tell me......

it was fun. i feel happy when i am with its a difficult choice for me. confused. but i need to get a decision now. i dunno who i should choose..arg..damn. its confusing. its even more difficult than electrical technology. bleah..

-> i hope this will end soon.
--> i hope i have a choice soon.
---> i hope i wont hurt anyone..
----> i want all 3 to be happy.......

hydefied - @ 11:00

Wednesday, July 20, 2005
good Best Day i had

it has been raining lately. and it rained again today. and me and casilda aka TSP shared an umbrella. apparently it wasnt of much use cause the both of us were still wet. as for chris and ian, they ran all the way from heeren to cineleisure. lol. by the time we got to cine, we were all wet. but i shouldnt complain cuz both ian and chris were even worse.

hope to go out with them soon. it was really fun. i was laughing all the time. love you guys cuz you never fail to add soooo much joy and laughter into my life. and they all enjoy bullying and "di-siao" ing me. cuz well, i am short and all of them are rather tall. i dun think people can see me when i am with them cuz i'll be covered up by their height. but then, tall isnt everything, right?

hydefied - @ 14:01

<--- Great Day Spent --->

had a great time with casilda, chris and ian. lol. too bad, zheng gen didnt join us. lol. it was nice, had a lot of fun fun FUN!! yeah..too bad..too broke to take neoprint. lol. i want to go out again with them soon.

nah..aint gonna elaborate so much. haha.. dun feel like blogging much today. *yawn

hydefied - @ 10:34

Tuesday, July 19, 2005
Narcissism at its best

cia- & cas. [18.07.05]
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hydefied - @ 14:05

San Liang San Jie Mei ?? LOL!!!

[from left] Li Ting, Casilda & Cia-
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hydefied - @ 14:02

Introducing Vampire Cia-

hmm..i told you. Vampire Cia-..hmm.. *licks* taste good..hmmm..uh-huh. so good..i need blood!!
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hydefied - @ 14:00

Saturday, July 16, 2005
whatever is love *deep thoughts*

love is just a simple feeling to me. but why is it so complicated. i dunno what i want. i know i want to be loved, but can i? i dunno, its just that kind of thing that i realised i cant be. i can never be loved. no matter what, maybe all my life, i gave too much love, never recieving it. as time goes by, i get used to the fact of not recieving the love. and thus, when someone were to say he loves me, i find it hard to accept, or rather i dunno how to accept it.

i feel like a suc L-O-S-E-R!! yes, i do feel like a loser. all my life, what i do is solve people's unhappiness and wait for people. i dunno why. it does suck at time and i dun really enjoy it too. haiz..but i choose to do so. i dunno why, i feel so stupid. yet i still chose to make such decision. i hate myself alot. especially lately, i feel like that leaving quietly. i feel like just going away. forever...

hydefied - @ 13:34

Thursday, July 14, 2005

lol. still not nice enough. i still look unnatural over here. *points to casilda* how come you look so natural. *sigh* i look very tired here. so conclusion: ugly! hehe
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hydefied - @ 19:02

presenting TSP & Disciple. Casilda And Cia-. note: i look rather horrible here. must be the lighting? lol, no. maybe i just look rather unnatural here.
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hydefied - @ 19:00

Tuesday, July 12, 2005
][ + First. Current. Last + ][

[ First ] thing you said when you woke up this morning ?
+ hello to my mummy +

[ First ] thing u did when you woke up this morning ?
+ brush my teeth +

[ First ] person you called today?
+ Chris +

[ First ] person you talked to today ?
+ my mummy +

[ First ] person you were thinking about today ?
+ him..i guess. lol +

[ First ] song you listened to today ?
+ Butterfly by Koda Kumi +

[ First ] movie you watched today ?
+ Korean movie. cant rmb the title +

[ First ] Tv show you watched today ?
+ Kang Kang Show +

[ First ] place you went to today ?
+ is toilet counted? +

[ First ] person you met today ?
+ mummy +

[ First ] person you hugged today ?
+ none +

[ First ] person you kissed today ?
+ none +

[ First ] drink you drank today ?
+ plain water +

[ First ] thing you ate today ?
+ curry puffs +

[ First ] homework you did today ?
+ no homework to be done +

[ First ] website you visited today ?
+ my blog +

[ First ] picture you took today ?
+ none +

[ First ] thing you touched today ?
+ my hair +

[ Current ] clothes you are wearing ?
+ t shirt and shorts +

[ Current ] website you are visiting ?
+ my blog +

[ Current ] homework you are doing ?
+ none +

[ Current ] drink you are drinking ?
+ none +

[ Current ] song you are listening to ?
+ Leave Me Alone by Micheal Jackson +

[ Current ] hair style ?
+ i dunno. short i guess +

[ Current ] smell ?
+ nice +

[ Current ] nick name in msn ?
+ [c]ia-.- + hardworking disciple + life is wad i wan it 2b + aisheteRu + tuang-ster + + Fatal Frame III: The Tormented + +

[ Current ] online users on your msn list ?
+ 50 +

[ Current ] mood ?
+ elated +

[ Current ] desktop wallpaper ?
+ fatal frame +

[ Current ] people you are missing ?
+ him and my khiam pa family +

[ Last ] person you talked to ?
+ Chris +

[ Last ] thing you said?
+ orh..ok.. +

[ Last ] thing you did ?
+ turn on i-tunes +

[ Last ] person who called u?
+ none +

[ Last ] game you played ?
+ been a long time since i played game +

[ Last ] thing you bought ?
+ none +

[ Last ] time you saw a hottie ?
+ last Fri +

[ Last ] person that msged you in msn ?
+ Chris +

[ Last ] thing you touched ?
+ the mouse +

[ Last ] thing you ate ?
+ fruits +

[ Last ] thing you wish to say ?
+ i wanna do well for this common test +

hydefied - @ 14:02

Pardon me, i'm in the mood for love

yes, i feel better now. he told me to go rest, and i did. now all the discomfort had start to wear off. and i feel much better than before.

today is a rather boring day, i hadnt have much mood to flip through my lecture notes. and all i did was read about " Narrating the Holocaust". yes, it was quite an interesting book. it kinda give you thhe insights of how life was in the concentration camps through the people who had survived it. such pain they go through can never be describe using words. its such things that can never be erased away.

bla bla bla whatever. its like i just wanna start having fun, but the thought of the common test next week kinda spoil my mood for fun! bleahx

hydefied - @ 08:33

Monday, July 11, 2005
Shopping + High Heels = Torture

my feet still hurts. and i bang my hand against the metal door knob again. damn, stupid of me to repeat this mistake again! bla bla bla, whatever.

and i do miss my secondary school days. i miss my khiam pa family alot. they were the people i love the most. i really treasure the times spent with them. but each of us gotta move on to another phase if our life. i miss you guys. we really gotta meet up soon!!!

y english standards has dropped drastically, i do realise that i've been speaking alot of mandarin lately, so my english standards are getting rather bad. i should refrain from colloquialism. singlish = bad english. i dun wanna be the subject of your ridicule. uh-huh, i dun intend to be! well..whatever..

hydefied - @ 11:18

Sunday, July 10, 2005
A little of this, abit of that and a pinch of those.+ wonderful combination +

i am not what i look like. its like you will never get to know the true me. i change according to the people i am with. if i am will a group of noisy, enthusiastic people. i will be like them. i adapt to the changes and people around me.

and yes, will start mugging for the common test soon. i cant wait to beat my shifu. so i'll have a chance to suan him. bla bla bla whatever. damn, my hand is hurting. i banged it against the metal door knob and its painful. bleahx.

i dunno, i need help in el tech. i do pay attention in class but there are some parts i dun understand. its not mr yee's fault. he's a good teacher but its juz that somewhere deep within my brain. there's smthing that juz dun click, some parts that i am confused. but whatever, my shifu will teach me. lol. hehehehe

and i love my shifu, shi bo, shi gong and tai shi po. they never fail to bring so much joy, laughter in to my life. lol. always di siao me. especially my shi-fu. and yes i know i am short. blame my genetics within my body. i am not ashamed bout being short. shortness has its advantage, you'll be ensured of the front seat in class and bla bla bla, i shalt elaborate further.

my shifu they all so lame. call themselves " ACCIC". i was like " erm...ok" its so bo liao. zheng gen aka shi bo oso so bo liao. tuang-sters in action. who can i blame. bla bla bla wadever. they're juz so lame!!! omg!! and i cant believe i was part of it. i thought i was lame enough, but i guess i've met my match! and i admit defeat.

hydefied - @ 06:20

Thursday, July 07, 2005
Men have it easy...Girls MAKE it complicated.

Men Are Just Happier People-- What do you expect from such simple creatures? + lol+

][ + 38. facts. why. men. are. happier. people. + ][

+ 1 + Your last name stays put.
+ 2 + The garage is all yours.
+ 3 + Wedding plans take care of themselves.
+ 4 + Chocolate is just another snack.
+ 5 + You can be President.
+ 6 + You can never be pregnant.
+ 7 + You can wear a white T-shirt to a water park.
+ 8 + You can wear NO shirt to a water park.
+ 9 + Car mechanics tell you the truth.
+ 10 + The world is your urinal. You never have to drive to another gas station restroom cause this one is just too icky.
+ 11 + You don't have to stop and think of which way to turn a nut on a bolt.
+ 12 + Same work, more pay.
+ 13 + Wrinkles add character.
+ 14 + Wedding dress $5000.Tux rental-$100.
+ 15 + People never stare at your chest when you're talking to them.
+ 16 + The occasional well-rendered belch is practically expected.
+ 17 + New shoes don't cut, blister, or mangle your feet.
+ 18 + One mood all the time.
+ 19 + Phone conversations are over in 30 seconds flat.
+20 + You know stuff about tanks.
+ 21 + A five-day vacation requires only one suitcase.
+ 22 + You can open all your own jars.
+ 23 + You get extra credit for the slightest act of thoughtfulness.
+ 24 + If someone forgets to invite you, he or she can still be your friend.
+ 25 + Your underwear is $8.95 for a three-pack.
+ 26 + Three pairs of shoes are more than enough.
+ 27 + You almost never have strap problems in public.
+ 28 +You are unable to see wrinkles in your clothes.
+ 29 +Everything on your face stays its original color.
+ 30 +The same hairstyle lasts for years, maybe decades.
+ 31 + You only have to shave your face and neck.
+ 32 + You can play with toys all your life.
+ 33 + Your belly usually hides your big hips.
+ 34 +One wallet and one pair of shoes one color for all seasons.
+ 35 +You can wear shorts no matter how your legs look.
+ 36 +You can "do" your nails with a pocket knife.
+ 37 +You have freedom of choice concerning growing a mustache.
+ 38 +You can do Christmas shopping for 25 relatives on December 24 in 25 minutes.

No wonder men are happier.

Send this to the women who can handle it


to the men who will enjoy reading it.

hydefied - @ 13:50


gonna give credits to people.

[] to my cousin angeline, for taking time off to help fix and create such an awesome blog!

[] ubisoft, for providing me this wallpaper!

lol. feel like i've just won an oscar award. wadever. but these people deserve to be given credits! + smiles +

hydefied - @ 13:00

comments please!

my blog is officially up. and i must say it looks terrific. please give me feedback on e looks and stuff. any coments, be it positive or negative, will be greatly appreciated! + smiles +

hydefied - @ 08:47

Wednesday is so ...... + let me think +

thanks to my cousin angeline, my blog is so ok! lol!! and its nice..way cool!! woo shifu is such a tuang-ster. haiz..always try his best to miss school. + disappointed + shifu muz jia you. ganbatte ne~ aja aja hwaiting! + smiles +

this sucks totally. i think it truly is. i am not going to elaborate. but i'm fumming. but whatever. juz gotta let it go! hey sucker! get lost! + note that this message is only for a particular person, not you + lol.

i am not going to complain how my life sucks, cuz seriously, its juz how you choose to see it. honestly, i am rather pessimistic. i dont see things from the positive point of view. ya..that's me.. but i'll change and look at things from different points. yes. lesson learnt!

last but not least. shifu, STOP tuang-ing!!!!! ganbatte ne~ aja aja hwaiting!

hydefied - @ 01:28

Tuesday, July 05, 2005
boo! heavy rain

today was relatively a fine day. juz that the heavy downfall brought my mood way low. and the thought of the fact that i'm not having youth day holiday totally turns me off!!! sigh!! the rain this morning came so suddenly, i didnt wanna attend school, but i hate to miss adventure ropes. bla bla bla., my shifu tuang again liao lorz..never do sports and wellness cuz he got diarrhoea and fever. lol. hope its true. *screams at the top of lung* shi fu, will u be coming to school tomorrow? lol. i doubt so. always m.i.a

mid-year resolutions:

[] do well in common test, esp el tech
[] make my shi fu cry
[] do well for maths test
[] be more enthusiastic and hardworking

hydefied - @ 11:40

Monday, July 04, 2005

Brad Pitt!! ("V")
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hydefied - @ 20:30

Saturday, July 02, 2005

hey wait, i think i still enjoy being a vampire. yes. count dracula!
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hydefied - @ 23:29

i'm learning the art of cannibalism. and i thout it'd be fun that my sis's my experiment! see her terrified face!
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hydefied - @ 23:28

Bill Gates Live

yeah, i've officially announce that i've seen bill gates, in person, bahahha..yeah..whatever. today was quite a hectic day, had two tests, EPS1 and IN1. pray hard that i dun fail my eps1. i blew the fuse, yeah..congrats, and that bloody fuse took up alot of my time and i didnt have anytime to complete the last question which is 9 marks. teacher was kind enough to give us another 10 more minutes..but still, i didnt get it.

then, went on to in1, did the online test on cisco academy and i've got 100! yup, my personal best, thank you very much. left classes early so as to not be late for the seminar. saw that guy again. hey, i've met him twice, once in the morning, the other when i was waiting for sansan. i still didnt went up to talk to him.

damn, my laptop bag was so bloody heavy, i had to carry it all the way to suntec and reached there at bout 12.30. we manage to get seats. and yes, i saw bill gates, howie ( that guy from eye for a guy 2) . after the talk i accompanied san to get her stuffs such as clothes, bag, sandals. we had was so nice!!

hydefied - @ 12:08