Wednesday, March 30, 2005 me again...bla..bla..bla

..i'll try my best to update this more diligent abit..haha..silly me...i hadnt been able to do much updating due to the fact htat i'm hook onto e game f mahjong on my cellphone..*laughs*

sch wont be staring til e near end of would be rather boring..but come to think bout me time to do some revisions *yawn* on the work *yawn* i've done in sec 3 and 4..yes..i've forgotten every single formula...i was tested on newton's law..shit...i've clean forgotten the 3 laws...damn...wadever...i still remember my sine,cosine and tangant...*laughs* i'm a little rusty here and there... cant blame me...i've never touch a single textbook for bout 4-5 months..haha...hope i can cope up in poly *fingers-crossed* bla bla bla...i'm crapping again...duh!

haha..cant meet up woth shu xian liao..damn...her sch starts today..oh man..cant drag her out for another session of photo taking...*laughs* all hail to the queen of self obsession *on mah knees* here i am again...crapping so much s*** and stuff...i cant wait to see shuxian and siewchin...miss all mah darling frens *hey..i'm not a lesbian...mind you* wadever...let ur imaginations run wild..yup..go'd increase your creativity...something the govt is stressing on...bla bla bla..

oh man..i'm bored...hadnt got much mood to play the new sims2 university expansion *frowns* suckz...goodness me...give me e mood to play the game....i wanna try it out...sheesh..this does...signing out...

hydefied - @ 16:16

Tuesday, March 29, 2005
TIMES interview with ayumi

'I have very clear ideas of what I want'

In an exclusive interview with TIME, Ayumi Hamasaki talks about her music, her fans and how fame has changed her life

Ayumi Hamasaki, Ayu to fans, is the most powerful figure in Japanese pop music. She's sold more records than any other musical act for two years running in the world's largest music market outside the U.S. Her frequent makeovers determine the course of fashion. Her huge black eyes peer out from billboards in every corner of the country. Fans memorize her lyrics, transform into Ayu clones and swear she's changed their lives. At 23, she rules Japanese youth culture—and therefore influences all of Asia's.

Though Hamasaki rarely gives in-depth interviews, TIME's Lisa Takeuchi Cullen sat down with her in late February to talk about her upbringing, her musical influences, and what she thinks about her fans in Asia.

TIME: Who's this?
Hamasaki: Marron. He's a wire-haired dachshund. He's still just eight months old—a puppy—but doesn't he look like an old man?

Yeah, because of his whiskers. Anyway, thanks for taking this interview. What intrigued us is that despite your popularity around the region, the Ayumi Hamasaki that people know is based on an image. What we'd like is to introduce the real Ayumi Hamasaki to our readers. Yoroshiku.

Listening to your last album, I thought it had a worldly outlook. Your manager told me the terror incident in New York had an impact on you. What did you think when you saw it on TV?
I thought it was a movie. I couldn't believe it was real. I've been to New York many times, and I couldn't accept it was really reality.

Did it influence your music?
Yes. It inspired one of the songs on the album [A Song Is Born].

And the image on the album cover.
The white dove—a symbol of peace.I had a completely different idea for the cover at first. We'd already reserved the space, decided the hair and makeup and everything. But after the incident, as is typical of me, I suddenly changed my mind. I knew it wasn't the time for gaudiness, for elaborate sets and costumes. It sounds odd coming from me, but I realize what I say and how I look has a great impact.

I'm told it also influenced your decision to go to Asia.
I'd never been.

Yeah, although I'd been to the U.S. many times.

How did you feel about your fans at the MTV awards show [in Singapore]?
I'd heard a lot of Asian people were rooting for me, but I had no idea. I was stunned. They were... impassioned, especially compared to Japan. I couldn't even have anticipated that kind of welcome. It made me realize how much the people of Asia support me, and that I had to go back.

You began composing on this album. What instigated that?
The way I work, typically, I do everything at the very last minute. Even if I was given two months, I'd do it in the last three days. It's best of course to ask someone who's a professional to do it.

Because it's faster?
Actually, no. It's hard to decide how to match words to music. It's not like it's twice the work. It's always difficult for me to explain to the composer what I'm looking for. I'm not a professional; I lack even basic knowledge about writing music. But I discovered that if I do it myself, it's quicker and closer to what I have in mind. When I start from scratch, I can do exactly what I want.

Compared to A Song for XX, your first album, it's like a different person is writing the lyrics on your latest. Your earlier songs focus on loneliness, and they seem more autobiographic. I Am..., though, takes on a broader view, touching on issues like faith and peace.
In the beginning, I was searching for myself in my music. My music was for me. I didn't have the mental room to be conscious of the listener; I wrote to save myself. I didn't understand what it was to write songs. But over time I began to see many things, my influence, the responsibilities that gave me.

Does that weigh you down?
For instance, when I talk to kids in Japan, it seems to me they have no dreams, no aims. But when I ask whom they admire, it's you.There were times it weighed me down. Like I was being chased. I pushed myself... even when it was impossible, I couldn't say so. I know everyone at [record company] Avex works hard for me, relies on me. Now, I don't mind. I accept it. I can lean on others, too. I feel it's okay to show that side of myself, and that's made it easier.

Let's talk about your past. You were raised by a single mother, which was rare at the time. Did that make you feel different?
I thought Mommy's life was strange, not mine.

You call her Mommy? That's so American.
Yeah, she told me to.

She lives in Tokyo now?
Yes. We're still close.

How about your dad?
I have no idea. I don't even know if he's dead or alive. He left when I was so young, I barely remember him.

Your song Teddy Bear is about your loneliness at that time.
I didn't understand my loneliness until I moved to Tokyo. I moved at 14. I came alone, without Mommy. She came later.

It wasn't long after that that you left your talent agency, then met [producer Masato "Max"] Matsuura at karaoke.
My friend at [Tokyo nightclub] Velfarre knew him, and brought him along to karaoke. When he asked if I wanted to pursue a singing career, I said, "No way."

He was this older guy, and I thought the whole thing sounded fishy. Like they were going to make me do something else. I'd never even heard of Avex, didn't really understand what it was. I thought it was maybe a club. It didn't advertise all the time the way it does now. Eventually [Matsuura and I] came to talk on the phone. I met with him over that year maybe three times.

Then he sent you to vocal training.
I had nothing better to do. Over that year he kept asking, You still don't want to do it? Finally I said okay. I was doing nothing at the time, going to clubs and to [Shibuya teen department store] 109. So he said to take lessons, and I hated it. It was bad. I hate doing things in groups. So I didn't go. But I told the company I was going. I was, I don't know, in my teens. I quit school in the 10th grade, but the lessons made me feel like I'd gone back to school. If there are rules and regulations, I can't help it, I want to break them. I wouldn't even answer my phone because I knew he'd ask about the lessons. I didn't know what to do.

So basically you became a star despite yourself.
I felt I'd lose my freedom. The thought of being told when to get up, when to eat... But then [Matsuura] told me to go to New York. I thought he was kidding. I mean, I was 17. I thought it'd be the same, and that I'd hate it. But it was really great. New York was a relief—not all hierarchical and rule-bound. I lived in a midtown Manhattan hotel, and walked to the lessons a couple blocks away.

Then you returned to Japan, and began writing songs?
Not because I'd planned to. It didn't occur to me to write them on my own. I have trouble voicing my thoughts... I can't communicate very well that way. So I'd write letters to [Matsuura]. He read them and said, "Why don't you try writing songs?" No one had ever asked anything of me before, expected anything of me. Part of me was flattered; part of me was terrified but didn't want to admit I couldn't do it. Plenty of people had patted my head and said, "Aren't you cute." There are so many who only compliment me. Senmu ['managing director' Matsuura] gets mad, but when he praises me, I know I've won it. He's the one who found me and drew me out.

When your songs became hits and your face began to appear everywhere, how did your life change?
It changed a lot. I couldn't go out, though even now I sometimes forget and say, "Hey, I'm just going to the convenience store." My staff looks at me and says, "But you can't." And I'm like, "Why not? ...Oh, yeah." I can't go to 109 much, for example, though I still like to. I have to send my stylists now.

Your image is still very much your own creation, isn't it? What struck me, watching your photo shoot last night [for upcoming album covers], was how much in control you were.
I have very clear ideas of what I want. Like one of my outfits last night; I had the top made out of a pair of pants I found at a boutique. They're French, I think. I had this idea to do a "Fake Japanese" image—you know, like what a foreigner perceives Japan is like.

You're known for spectacular image changes like that one. I suspect that helps fuel the perception that you're less a person than a product. How does Ayumi Hamasaki, the person, feel about Ayumi Hamasaki, the product?
We're similar, in some respects. It's my own image. It is necessary that I am viewed as a product. I am a product. The "Hi, this is Ayu" person on TV is the person I know they want to see. I understand it's my role to realize people's dreams. I'm okay with that so long as my songs are my own. No one can take my songs away from me. For instance, hundreds of people work at Avex. They work hard for me. I understand my words are not my own, that everything that comes out of my mouth affects them. But my songs are my own.

Which of your songs are you proudest of?
I always like whatever I did most recently. It's the closest to who I am at the moment.

What about who you want to be? I've heard you say you have no dreams.
It's true. I don't have dreams. How can I say it? I myself am a dream.

How about your future? I've heard you've thought of going into design.
I don't set goals. Like, that's what I want to be doing however many years from now. I do what I love to do at the moment. If I wake up tomorrow and decide I want to dance, that's what I'd do. Or design clothes. I think I'd throw myself into whatever I'm doing now. It's not about abandoning what I was doing before, or giving up. It's about knowing that if I die tomorrow, I lived the way I wanted to.

Who do you listen to?
Smashing Pumpkins. Joan Osborne. I loved her song in [the movie] Vanilla Sky, so I bought the soundtrack but it wasn't on it. I asked everyone about it, and finally my friend in Hawaii told me who it was. Also Michelle Branch. She's big in Japan now, and really young. Oh, and Kid Rock. If anything I lean toward his kind of music. Like a mix of things—rock, grunge, rap.

There's a rock influence on your latest album.

You talk about how you influence others. Is there someone who influences you?
It was written in some newspaper that I'm a Japanese Britney Spears. I like her, and she's fun to watch, but I don't get the sense that she's her own creation. Who I really like is Madonna. What I admire is she's made it on her own terms. But when I said that in Singapore, the press reported that I wanted to perform with her. That's not at all true. I don't think you should meet the people you most admire. I don't want reality to interfere with my image.

I see a lot of similarities with Madonna, like, for instance, the constant image changes. She's endured for so long by keeping the public interested. Are you confident you can do the same?
Not really.

What inspires you?
I read and watch movies. I can't go to the movie theater much anymore, though, because I get recognized. It's worse sometimes if I wear a costume and try not to get recognized. I watch most of my films on airplanes. I just saw Fight Club, so I'm big on Burapi [Brad Pitt].

Would you act again?
When I was doing it, I hated it. It wasn't fun. Just exhausting. If it was under the right circumstances, though, the right project with the right people who'd make an effort to understand me...

Is that your dog snoring?
Yep, that's him.

Crea—your pen name?
Yes, the name of my Chihuahua. I have four dogs—two Chihuahuas, Crea and Melon, a Yorkie named Ringo (Apple), and Marron [the dachshund]. Crea is the one who looks just like me.

hydefied - @ 03:08

Ayumi! 2004.01.01

Ayu continues music award dominance


Ayumi Hamasaki continued her dominance of Japan's music industry, winning the top prize for an unprecedented third consecutive time at the 45th Japan Record Awards on Wednesday night.

Hamasaki won the prestigious award for her hit son "No Way to Say," which followed "Voyage" in 2002 and "Dearest" in 2001 as her third triumph in the prize offered by the Japan Composers Association.

Heartthrob Kiyoshi Hikawa was awarded the best vocalist award, while Yo Hitoto was recognized as the best new artist. (Mainichi and wire reports, Jan. 1, 2004)

hydefied - @ 02:28

Ayumi's "dearest" song of e year 2002

Hamasaki's 'Dearest' song of the year


Pop superstar Ayumi Hamasaki has been awarded the top prize at the 43rd Japan Record Awards.

Arguably the most popular performing artist in Japan at the moment, the diminutive diva picked up the prize for her top-selling ballad "Dearest."

It was the first time for the 23-year-old performer to win the award, the most prestigious in the Japanese popular music industry.

Also emerging winners were w-inds, a band awarded the Best New Talent.

The Japan Record Awards are presented by the Japan Composers Association. They were awarded on Monday night in Tokyo. (Mainichi Shimbun, Jan. 1, 2002)

hydefied - @ 02:24

found more ayu pic on the web...YEAH

i love ayumi...i really cant understand why some people me..ayumi is really a perfect being..well..although there's no such thing as perfect..but my opinion..she's really talented [she writes her own song etc.], great fashion sense [there's no reason why she's one of e leading lady in e fashion industry], she designs her own clothings...

i have great respect for ayumi...she pens her own lyrics..which mean she's really sincere and true to her fans...there's no point of singing what you're singing when you dont mean seen in her concert..she's loves her fans..she dun lip-synch in any of her concert performances...although at times her voice is quite annoying..but then it shows her sincerity...she takes great effort to connect with her fans...which makes her an ideal role model...

ayumi also reflects woman power...her childhood only made her stronger and better...given her "power" in her entertainment industry...ayumi shows no sign of arrogance...i find it really annoying when celebrities act like a diva..oh man..give me a break...take a lesson or 2 from ayumi..

stars copying ayumi...i feel that everyone is unique and there isnt a need to copy ayumi...i really find it annoying to see people like jolin copying ayumi...yes..yes..although jolin claims that her designers are also from japan..but the similarities are really distinctive...i'm not dissing jolin or anybody..but i feel that the evidence of jolin copying ayumi is so obvious..why bother will only make people hate her more...especially ayumi's fans...

ayumi has good terms of her dressing...she portrays an image of sophistication and class...yes..she shows lots of skin at time...but then...she dun look like a slut or a whore...instead she look better, mature and class...which made me like her even more...she's just a sweet person who is really misunderstood by certain people...but then wadever~

hydefied - @ 02:18

Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Good Bye Unity, Hello Ngee Ann Poly

Ah..yes..hello...too long never enter a decent entry bout my life...too busy watching tv..cuz my kor subscribe SCV/ Cable watch tv all day...rotting my life away..

yup...finally..the o levels result's out and i've gotten into the course that i want..any way i'm taking internetworking and communication...although i'm previously from a pure science class..i am not interested in any science related me..after 2 years of it..its really sickening and boring...

awaiting for a new chapter in my'd be so different in poly...more liberal..but then i'll miss my fren..hope yuanee oso appeal same course as me..then we can be school'd be neoprint partner...haha..eaiser to go out and have fun...

hydefied - @ 23:40

][*.m.a.g.a.z.i.n.e.*][ ][*.ayumi.*][ Posted by Hello

hydefied - @ 21:01

Tuesday, March 22, 2005
Jay Sean "Eyes On You"

"Eyes On You"

You can tell your girlfriends about me
It's about time to get rowdy
You know I wanna work that body
Come work it over here
You can be my brown-eyed beauty
And I bet you see right through me
You can do anything to me

You're so beautiful
Tonight anything is possible
And you know I just can't get enough
Of your love, so give it up

Got my eyes on you
Won't you bring that back to me
Got my eyes on you
You know where I'm gonna be
Got my eyes on you
And I see you checkin me
Got my eyes on you
And I like what I see

You can tell anyone about it
Show it off, no need to hide it
C'mon get a little excited
Excite it over here
Don't stop baby girl don't stop
I know you really like it when you're on top
Don't be shy jus give it up
C'mon girl![Repeat Bridge]

[Repeat Chorus]

Your body's whining
Bumpin and grindin'
Stop and rewind it

[Repeat Chorus]

hydefied - @ 10:59

Alicia Keys "If i aint got you"

"If I Ain't Got You"

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, Yeah

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love him
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

If I ain't got you with me baby
So nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

hydefied - @ 10:55

Thursday, March 17, 2005
Avril Lavigne "Nobody's Home"

"Nobody's Home"
Singer: Avril Lavigne

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

hydefied - @ 11:22

Saturday, March 12, 2005
I Never Dreamed Someone Like You (Could Love Someone Like Me) Song by the movie Carrie

I Never Dreamed Someone Like You
(Could Love Someone Like Me)

Performed by Katie Irving

Could it be that the lady is me in the photograph
I'm afraid 'cause it feels too good and I want it too bad
It's just not true, couldn't ask for anymore than you.
Because you look at me
As though I'm beautiful
Could it be that you want me
I never dreamed someone like you
Could want someone like me.

I'm not sure but the more that it's real, the more it's right.
Oh, what a night,
It's as though we've been lovers all of our lives.
There must be God, could it be that he's heard me at last.
Because you look at me
As though I'm beautiful
Could it be the lady's me
I never dreamed someone like you
Could want someone like me.

All the pain and the pleasure's the same, it goes so fast
I'm the girl with the strawberry hair in the photograph
So come on let's dance, let me have it while I have the chance.
Cause there's another world where there are other girls
But tonight there's only me
I never dreamed someone like you
Could love someone like me.

hydefied - @ 13:59

Friday, March 11, 2005
Happy Birthday Shu Xian's Shu Xian's birthday ][ Happy Birthday Sweetie ][ but too bad..i couldn't celebrate it wid her la...she stil got classes at maybe next year...

went out with my mum today..went to westmall...cuz my mum wans to buy i juz went along..leaving my sis alone at home..its was nice...saw a dress at this fashion but it didnt in my size...well its ok..i dun reali wear dress anyway...bla bla it didnt affect me... mum has been learning to cook more variety og vegeterian food for me..hahaha so its good news...she made delicious food...improved alot..well..not that my mum's a lousy cook...she's average la..but she's learning... ][ way to go mum][

hydefied - @ 15:58

Tuesday, March 08, 2005
Goodbye Nokia 3310, Hello Sony Ericsson T630

Yup..hello once again..haha..its been kinda long since i last step in and update le...but sister got chicken pox..but she's ok liao..its her 2nd week le..but she missed school..alot sia..

hahaha..i got a new handphone..hahahahaha...finally..waited super long...cuz that stupid nokia phone of mine abit siao siao liao..cant seem to be able to call out sia!! blahz..wadever...i've gotten a new phone...who cares bout that lousy phone...

hydefied - @ 17:35