Thursday, March 31, 2011

Some of them want to use you

Some of them want to get used by you

Some of them want to abuse you

Some of them want to be abused

got this off song lyrics

hydefied - @ 11:12

Strange Love

I know it's over but I don't want it to be! I long for the touch of your skin against me, and the warmth your touch. I wish things hasn't been so drastic and when distrust sets in, it's hard to learn to love purely.

Will you sweep me into your arms, kiss me passionately and tell me everything is alright? Maybe if we learn to turn a blind eye on things, life would have been happier, simpler and far less complicated.

Everytime I recieve your sms/call/email. It totally just sent me into a turmoil of emotions and I don't know if it's a good or bad thing. You are like a roller coaster. You bring me through a whirlpool of emotions. You gave me happiness, yet you brought me tears. You gave me your words, yet you did something wrong. You told me you love me, yet I am doubting that love. You said I'm yours, but I don't feel you're mine.

I really wanna give it another try, but all will still end up in tears and heartbreaks. I do want all of this to last......

but when you say you love me, do you really mean it?

hydefied - @ 00:10

Sunday, March 27, 2011
My birthday wishlist! (:

1) MinoHD camera
2) Pink DS-Lite/DSi
3) Canon Ixus 130 (Orange/Pink)
4) Sony DSC-T99 (Purple!)

For now this are the ones, in this order, I really really want/like/need! <3

I GOT MY IPHONE 4!!!!!!!!!

hydefied - @ 00:18

Monday, March 21, 2011

Seriously, yesterday was THE WORST day of my life.

1) Those crap-ass people showed up all blacked face and give up their fucked up attitude. Fuck!
2) Stop complaining and STOP covering up. So much for forgive and forget!

Please stop saying something but act in another way

I hate these people! Only disrupt my peaceful life! I don't fucking care if you don't like me because I DON'T LIKE YOU TOO! Fuck! Argh~!!!!! Don't practise what you preach.

Don't fucking tell me to open my heart and forgive them WHEN THEY ARE THE ONES WHO ARE SMALL HEARTED AND FILLED WITH BITTER JEALOUSY!!!

What is love beings when obviously people can hurt others they dont like!! Fuck! I hate it max!!!

Don't fucking label us as troublemakers and still have the bloody cheek to ask us to help you all with things!!! Fuck!!

Don't like us just say la! Be honest, we are all adults! Don't do fucked up pretentious things and later try to explain to us

those people are pure (HAHA) are really just fucking hypocrites! Two face small heart bloody ass hypocrites!! If people like that can go to Paradise! What is Paradise??

If you choose to leave, don't blame it on us that you are leaving! Why do we choose to blame others for all these troubles.

Lastly, I am not fucking jealous and rude to that fucked up person ok! only treating the person as invisible! You don't know what exactly is rude unless I really show you what is rude!

Fuck!! I really don't see what's the point of being so religious! I don't see why I am continuing these on and on. I don't understand why people are so damn bloody evil and refuse to let you go without giving you a bad name. I don't see a point in being in this religion when all I see is people hurting each other because of petty jealousy.

I need a break from all these shits!! It's mentally torturing all of us and really putting a tow on us! I feel like I am used and abused.

So what if you have contributed to alot? They rather believe others than you.



hydefied - @ 09:35

Wednesday, March 09, 2011

I was looking forward to 20%
because I'm off to Malaysia, I can't go see!!!!!!
I'm also missing out on IT Fair this weekend!!!!!!!!
I'd be back on the 16th (Hopefully). Anything just drop me an email/twit! (:
WHYYYYYY????!!!!!!!! Sigh~

hydefied - @ 15:57

Tuesday, March 08, 2011

I don't know how to console that gal! She has sank into this too deep! Love is a scary thing, sometimes. No matter what he does, it will give you a whiplash and drag you into a whirlpool of emotions. Have never never seen her so emotional before. No matter what happen, she will choose to smile and try to not let it affect her. Sigh~this is all getting complicated! ):

Hope she can soon let it go and not torture herself emotionally and mentally whenever he chu pattern and do something that would upset her

A like B, but B still likes C, but C already has D.. This is like a recipe for disaster!! And it will all end with heartbreak and tears!

Love hurts but we still wanna get involved in it! ):

I still missed him sometimes......

hydefied - @ 10:11

Sunday, March 06, 2011

Just completed our duties at ah tan's wedding. Really happy for the two of them after everything they have been through!!! I'd be off to somewhere else and will be back by Thursday, so will update more of my life when I get back!! Sorry for the lack of updates though...

hydefied - @ 16:02

Wednesday, March 02, 2011
Mixed Emotions

I feel happy, sad, disappointed, relief


Disappointed that my transfer to another department is not successful.

Sad is prolly if it's successful, I'd miss most of my colleagues

Happy is that I can still see them for now!

Relief is maybe this is a blessing in disguise, it can't be that bad, right?

See how ironic this turns out to be! ):

I'm happy because I'm gonna see Peiru this Friday!! <3

hydefied - @ 07:55