i am someone who can love a person easily, but yet i am someone who is afraid to fall in love. it seems weird, but everytime i fall for someone, i am afraid of it. fear would set in on me....and i would regret my very own decision. after so many encounters, i just realise that i have to set my goals and standards higher and not allow anyone to take advantage of me in any way. i do long to have a boyfriend, but yet i am afraid to have one. i do agree that the old me is good. in a way, its good and bad, good in a way that i dont have so much troubles to handle and i am a much happier person, but bad in a way is the people i got to know. everything has two sides, but i have learn to stay positive and always look on the bright side.

love isnt so important to me, it is not a priority, neither is it a need to have one. i am contented to have good friends around me. though once a while i may developed feelings for them, but i dont think i am ready to commit myself into a relationship. i am not open with my feelings, problems and troubles....so i just need a person to understand....but then, i have found that particular person to aid me in my healing and problem sharing.

so many things, and just too little time.
> monday - IAC Spies'R US presentation, ComT 20mins group presentation
> tuesday - EG2 quiz, OOP lab test, IN closebook online quiz
> thursday - EPS Eagles Unit 1-6 test

balls, i just pray i can cope and at least pass all these, i cant afford to retain, but yet i am not studying. i am not in the mood of studying. i feel so stupid lately, and confused. but life still goes on, i have to stay strong.

cheers*

things arent what you think it is. appearance can be decieving.