Friday, May 05, 2006
WONDERLAND
am i that anti-social? or do i hurt people through my actions? i really dunno why people think so. i am good if you are good to me, and i can be equally nasty if you are to me too. i felt kinda sad after what happen last night, but i try to maintain my composure and be as per normal. i didnt really feel like talking, but then i dont want to be questioned for such quiet-ness.
i think maybe i still cant stand the idea of falling in love, its still too scary for me, and i realise he may hate me cuz i made him wait. kinda disappointing, i guess when a relationship sours, friendship can never...well...is hard to maintain. saddening. but its too late to feel sorry or sad about it.
been thinking alot. maybe i just have to get through this 3 years and hopefully, save enough money to move to another country, at least i can start afresh without all those people. going to a place without knowing anybody can be rather fun! =)
i dun understand oop2 today, i feel like an idiot when everyone around me knows what is going on. i feel like a lost sheep without the shepherd. i feel blinded by everything and i feel so tired bout the things going on in my life. i feel so depressed, like today, but yet i have no one to confide with. i guess i arent really so close to the people around me afterall. :'(
where's my knight in shining armour? i sense tears! =(
Hydefied @ 10:13