The letter writing to her made me thought about many things that has happened. The actions of a man, is it worth it? It seriously made me ponder upon my existance here. Sometimes should I have committed this action? Should I speak what I have to?

Sigh, it is not the time to get emotional, but then again, why do such feeling just flow in when it's like a day before the common test.

I seriously doubt he does understand how deep his words have hurt me, indeed. He just never realise it. Only through such crude words do I realise what I truly am to him. Stop giving me false lies and hopes that it's for my own good. I am not that naive to believe that, it only allow me to know what kind of a person you are.

Maybe I should really try my very best to do the ACL to deny things that I really don't wanna see/hear. It does no help but bring me down. I am not going to cry myself to sleep every night, and wake up treating as if nothing has happened. ): I am not going to say that you'd change and I'll change. Fucking shit, it is really getting to emotional. To think I am blogging about such shit ass stuff when I should be mugging for my test.

It is not that I don't have to good friend to share my thoughts, but at times, I just don't know how to share it with them. I am not always happy like I seemed to be. Sigh, I can't always be bothering others just because of my own personal things. I don't want things like that to happen, it just came to me like a slap in the face. Honestly, it makes me wanna think about it when I feel like sharing. Sad but so true.

Sometimes I don't want you to understand, you seem to have enough problems to listen to mine. to that person out there, I totally hate you, whatever happened to the lil friendship. I don't think you'd ever understand your actions. You always think you are right while I am always Fucking wrong. To hell with you, I shall not bother to talk to you. I shall delete you from my contact list or whatsoever shit I have.

NOW IS NOT THE RIGHT TIME TO GET EMO!!