I was really disappointed! I really don't understand why people can resort to backstabbing others out of pure jealousy?! This is total nonsense. And all those so called learn buddhism for so many years...in the end? You learn NOTHING! You're still so petty, jealous and trouble-makers. ):

Whatever you do or snatch to do is purely out of your greed for merit and to get on his good books. Really?! I heard from my cousin that when they do good deeds, it's not because they want to go to Heaven, or for any motives, its OUT OF PURE LOVE they have for God (Jesus, Almighty Father). They do this for their love for Jesus that they recognise that he died for our sins. Why can't we learn it this way..why must everything be done because I want merit merit merit?? This is bullcrap, please. I don't be filial to my parents for the motive of gaining high merits. I AM filial to my parents because they love me and took care of me.

When people start doing good things because of gaining merit...aren't we all doing transactions? I do this to gain that. I won't do this if I'm not gaining that. Must it really be so selfish?!! Do we only do things that benefit us? I don't know, but I really feel very disappointed in everything that I know. I'm losing faith in everything I once believed in.

Sometimes people tell me they are really amazed that even though I'm young, but I am already have strong faith in my religion. BUT looking back and reflect, I really don't know what am I supposed to do. Don't all religion teach us to do good and avoid bad. Why do we call ourselves religious people when we are turning against each other and stirring up trouble. Life is nothing but a journey of an actor. We all play a role, but does it have to include betrayal, jealousy?

How many people do you still wanna hurt in order to gain this merit? Is it really worth it? So what if you do this can help you gain merit, while in the process you selfishly harm others. I think this really affected me a bit as I really started crying a little last night!

Who are these so-called hypocrites? Aren't we all brothers and sisters living on Mother Earth. When will we learn to co-exist and love unconditionally? Do we really have to wait til the person's death then we realised that we have not treasure this person's existence and start to regret our actions?

I think my posters know I'm in a bad mood and they started falling off.

Sigh!