I guess when I am leaving, I kinda wanna leave immediately and not do this 1 month notice, it's suffocating as well as demoralizing. If I really had a choice, 2 weeks notice and I'm out! I'm already considering if I should just clear off my 1 Off day and 1 AL to bring my last day to 6th. Fug! ):

Friday was horrid! I wanted to leave like immediately!! I was getting really emo over loads of things and just wanted to escape to my own safety room and cry! never mind, I got a messy room to clear and I went down Ikea, didn't wanna bother Eddy to go with me cuz really ma fan him, so I decided to go alone. Plus I wanted time to be alone, myself and not have to face anyone and pretend that I am ok when I'm not. He was nice and wanted to come pick me up but I really don't wanna cry infront of him so I took a cab home instead! ): Started with all the cleaning, clearing away all the junk. Cleaning up is really refreshing and make you feel brand new and it's an awesome feeling. When I'm feeling really emo, cleaning my room helps!

Spend my Saturday doing laundry, and met my cousin at Central, then Liang Court cuz I wanna go Kinokuniya as there was a 20% going on there that weekend. Didn't get much in the end, but shopped at Medi-ya to get more things, ie chocolates, some tray for my perfumes. Had ice-creams and it was really nice! (: Insomnia that night, and was chatting with Yuan Ee on skype. Only managed to fall back to sleep at 4am

Used the time on Sunday to clear all the misc trash and junk in the room, then watched a whole lot of TV til I got really bored of it! Blasted my player with a dose of Bruno Mars and watched the world go by.

I wish I can leave ASAP and I don't wanna face a lot of things. It's hurting but I can't avoid, it's painful but I can't stop.

Even though I smile and laugh, it doesn't mean it's ok, it doesn't heal the wound and it doesn't make it better.

It's been a while since I write such emo post but then again, I will be ok by the end of the day!

Hwaiting Alicia!

Lastly,

Happy Birthday Yuan Ee! I really really miss you!! I hate the fact that when I really have such shitty moments, you are not a sms away and when I know you are struggling, I can't drop you a sms or anything. I really hope 31 December 2011 will come soon so I can meet and really have so many things to tell you! ): Take care babe. Missed~


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