9999 words essay write out beautifully, placed into a beautiful envelope accompanied with a rose [ or just a pretty flower], chocolate [ personally made ones] and a special thing that you want. seriously and honestly, will it win a girl's heart if a guy does this? i dunno.

hmmm...tiring day but had fun. adventure rope..well...at least we started climbing a low element.. well..hmph...at least it’s better than nothing. so i should keep my bloody mouth shut and not complain. CATS...oh bother...i kinda dread going to that class...all it does is squeeze my brain dry and liveless. boo...damn...i feel like crap and shit today. lack of energy? i dunno...maybe.

coming back to the issue about my hair. oh great...it is copper brown. it looks so "bright". damn!! i shouldnt have dyed it in the first place. cuz in the instructions, it clearly stated that black hair= brown [which look acceptable to me]. and brown hair = copper brown hair. i stupidly missed the instruction and VOILA...now i am stuck with copper hair...too bad...it’s my own bloody fault and i cant blame anyone. can i?

i am still thinking bout the things they used to tell me. have i really change a lot? well...i guess i really did. i dunno why but maybe as my life gets more and more complicated, i may not live as happy as i want myself to be. aint gonna share and trouble others bout my problem. cuz in my point of view what is the point in doing so. nah, they wont understand and they'll find it and me totally irritating. boo...damn...fffuuuccckkk.....

not prepared for finally test yet. gotta buck up if i wanna achieve good grades. and yes i dun wanna lose to him. its embarrassing and i may end up ending my so called wonderful life. lol. i dunno. see how things go on. and see if problems will start getting solved. dream the impossible. attempt the impossible. lol.

19.july.2005. a day that will be remembered always and forever. time really flew fast. she's left us for a year. i wonder if she is really happy now. and yes i am positive she is as i know she'll be born into a family who will give her love. her life will be less painful than what she went through in this life. and yes, i pray for her happiness. you are forever loved, cherished, treasured by the passione family. and i truly miss you. miss your laughter as you never fail to brighten my day with your concerns and care. treasured friend who will always be in my mind, heart and never forgotten, let go. yean choi, we all loved and treasure the time [ though its only a year and 7 months] we spent with you. ____+ missed dearly +____

_____+ make my day a happy, worth living one +_____