Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Present
first thing first, who is anonymouse? stop killing me with the fucking suspense and tell me who u are. dun piss me off, ok?
at times, what's the point of having a public diary when no one reads it? i am tempted to shut it down for good at times. but then, it took alot of people's time and effort to make it the way it is today, and shutting it down is letting them down. and myself.
i am reckless. i do things only when i like it. i am never a good girl. i may look and act like one. but many times, good is boring. bad is interesting. i want to be a naughty, horrible, self centered, mean bitch. i want to watch you die, bully you, seduce you.
and my dear gal, i am not your spare tyre. i am not someone you can look for only when your darling boyfriend deserts you. i feel like an idiot. i've always been to kind. and my kindness is always being taken advantage. let your man know how much you need him la. then, i wont feel used le.
just realise i have to work again this saturday and sunday. and also on deepavali. aww man..there goes my wonderful holiday. cannot watch tamil movie on the 1st le. hurhur...
i am so childish
i am immature
i am imperfect
perfection is boring
i adore imperfections
lastly, stop making me have the urge. i cant stand it anymore. i may go crazy. stop tempting me with everything. i feel weak. and in need of some help.
Hydefied @ 15:15