Monday, September 18, 2006
The lil things in life
*Disclaimer : This entry is solely on my current thoughts about my life. I'm not referring to any soul. If you are going to misunderstand or get angry. I suggest you do the right thing and get out IMMEDIATELY. If not, don't come blaming/hating/accusing me for saying this about you or whatsoever. *
Many times in life, I stop and think..."Am I am being appreciated for whatever that I've done?" or even " Am I right to do/say this?". Many of times my reply is no, but yet I find myself doing it over and over again. The main thing is, for others to be able to appreciate me, I just gotta start appreciating myself first. However, I seem to fail exceedingly. Sheesh~ preaching to me all day long ain't gonna help, sugar! =P
I like the way my life is working to now. At least I have some goals in life to fufil. I'm not probing into a relationship that would tear me apart. I'm not engaging in unhealthy lifestyles that will bring me down. And I'm not starting friendships that will end up in tears. No matter what happens, I'm sure of whom I can count on, and I love them for just this simple reason! :) No more tears, honey. No more heartbreaks. More smiles and laughter.
Masking up my emotions have been a nice-yet-not-so-nice thing. It's more like being involve in a love-hate relationship. I'm mean totally. It ain't cool, but yet I still enjoy doing it. My inner most self is like weak, but yet I'm hiding it to stay out from any trouble. I don't mind people thinking I'm wearing any sort of masks, or whatsoever they can imagine of, simply because they don't know or understand the true me. What you see is only the appearance, even sometimes people who think they know or understand me eventually don't. Most time, I see no point in trying to explain, things that should be left alone SHOULD be left alone. No point trying to probing/forcing/persuading me to say things that aren't all that neccessary. =)
Many things may have happened in this 1 & 1/2 years. I may have done alot of things that no one has expected me of. All I can say is, this is my life...I choose my road. If I were to fall, I'd picked myself up. If I'd to meet setbacks, I'd have to face them bravely. I don't need people having to tell me whatever I should do/say/act. Sigh~ the finer things in life. I ain't gonna waste my life getting into trouble, doing drugs...all the bad things you can think of. I just want a simple life. =)
Take Care. Ciao y'all
Hydefied @ 08:36