Wednesday, February 23, 2011
It's just a craze that will slowly fade away
It's hard knowing that now we are not as before. Yesterday you called but I wasn't available to pick up the call. And when I saw it was you, I had to resist the temptation to call back. I really want to hear your voice but I really want to let it go! It's the best for 2 of us but what really is good? The future will always remain a mystery but I know that as long as we have ever been in love, it's all that matters. I know that somewhere deep within, you'd always be irreplacable.
Yesterday we have a mini family discussion. I just feel that from today onwards, we really should live for ourselves. I think being so trusting and devoted to them only left us in pain and shattered in pieces. I know it's a test! but why keep testing us? There's a limit to our tolerance and faith. I'm sorry to say that all this things just add on to my hatred for this religion. I'm sorry but that's what I feel!
I feel terrible
I feel pain
I feel betrayed
I feel hurt
I feel unappreciated
I feel used
I feel the tears in my eyes
I feel the lost
but no matter what I feel
I know it's gonna make me stronger
I know it's gonna make me learn
I know I'm gonna be happy
whether you like me or not!
Going for my written assessment later and hopefully change is on it's way. Really tired and I really got this urge to get back to the books.
Wish me luck
xoxo
Hydefied @ 12:15