Friday, June 01, 2012
My Past and Present
Sometimes when i am bored, I will tend to re-read my older blog entry.
I think my entry went from childish (tYpInG lIkE tHiS) to happy (excited to go poly and start an exciting journey) to angst (alot of cursing and swearing and have low tolerance to idiots) to emo (breakup, quarreling, feeling betrayed and hurt by things that some people do) to happy (graduation) to excitment (1st job) to emo (indecisiveness, unwilling to let go to him) to more angst (hating my job, hating my life) to normal (enjoying my life and little things I have) and to more hatred (religious shit problems) and to contentment (sharing my wishlist and how good life has given me with good family and good friends whom I can count on).
I think I have grown up. I do miss my poly times but not some moments. I miss alot of carefree and life without having to care about any thing.
Can we be together again? Maybe yes, maybe no. Because I think I may love you but when we get together, I don't think I really like you that much. I find it harder to share my thoughts and feelings.Maybe I only enjoy the persona portrayed and the idea of being in love.
Am I that fickle minded?
Hydefied @ 09:37