Thursday, August 10, 2006
Friendship is just a form of making use
Our phone conversation ended up like half an hour or so, due to the fact that he made me tell him everything, from my studies, to friendship problem and all the way to Jerome Ku! Isn't it nice to have such lovely people who can just listen to you rant on and on without any sign of frustration, and the possiblity of drifting off while you're talking. I think most of my friends can't do that, which is part of the reason why I can't spill everything out, even if I'm extremely sad, unhappy and frustrated.
Been feeling rather down lately, my smiles and laughter doesn't mean that I'm ok, just that people aren't sensitive enough or close enough to feel it. Sigh~ Oh well, I can't ask so much right? I think many of times, people are just using me to help them get answers and listen to their problems. So saddening to learn that friendship isn't so pure afterall. Everyone is merely making use of each other to benefit themselves. Nothing more and nothing less.
Mr. Yap was so cool today, OOP Written felt like a lecture. We discussed, he dropped some hint here and there, and it was totally awesome. He's a very nice and good lecturer. =) Not that Nazir ain't good, but just that his teaching method doesn't suit me. =( I never felt such relief as I tensed up and panicked easily. Million thanks to Casilda, Cedric, Firdaus, Ian, Li Ting for helping me along the way. *love*
I really don't know what to say about the WSS. Because of this, my attachment has been pushed all the way from year 3 to next semester (if comfirmed). It is sort of a mixed feeling I'm getting, one side I'm happy as I need not face so many people anymore, on the other, I feel really sad that I won't be able to spend my lunch and classes with Fir, Ian etc. Sigh~ Industrial Attachment also instilled a slight fear in me. What if I can't do it? What if I'm assigned to a job that I can't cope? All the insecurities, all the dilemmas and all the troubles. =(
IN Written on Monday, and IN Lab Retest the following day. I hope I can do well for both components. At least a B+ can make me very happy! =) I hope this semester can at least maintain the GPA at 3 or above.
Hydefied @ 23:02