Thursday, October 24, 2013
Giving up
I think I am just going to give myself another chance and
hopefully things do get better. I know bestie has my interest at heart and don’t
wish to see me get hurt again but I think I just want another chance and see
how things goes. I am not even going to give any expectations and hopes. I know
maybe the likelihood of the outcome will still be the same but I need to give
myself a reason to really let go.
I know probably a few months down the road; I may be faced
with the same situation and feel very angry or upset why I even bother to give
the final chance. However, I rather give then regret why I not gave that
chance. It is complicated but I think it’s for the best. I will not allow
myself to get affected by it and I will not complain if things don’t go my way.
Because I choose this path and let’s see how things goes.
I am just going to give up on him. I will not go chase him
and I will just leave everything status quo. I will not get all emo because of
him and just be strong. If he isn’t going to do anything, so be it. I will just
regard as me thinking too much. Just me assuming that the feelings are mutual. So
I will just let it go. I don’t want to stop on the spot, I want to move on. I dislike
the feeling that I am not advancing and being just down because of him. I really
don’t want to drag this on and make myself cry every night because he is not
worth it.
Be strong me.
Hydefied @ 13:51